How are you?

I should have answered the text, but it’s still sitting in my WhatsApp, waiting. The last sentence simply read: How are you?

Yesterday I realized, I’m not okay.

But by how much? I don’t know.

So I have two memberships that have lapsed already, and I’m still deciding what to do with them.

The first one, I once said, “I’ll give it one year and see if I can make it work.” That was — I don’t know — three years ago? and it’s still not working out, and of course covid lockdown was part of the reason last year had no chance of it working out. The person I talked to had already left — a year after I told him I’d try just one more year.

The second one offers a discounted rate for “members who are experiencing financial challenges”. Do I count? I suppose I should, but there’s no objective criteria. So I honestly don’t know.